Blanketed

		My heart
		Weighed down immeasurably
		Struggles to keep on the surface -
		God is lost in the depression,
		And my deflated soul
		Seems to reject going to Him.
		So many things have happened today -
		So many stupid things -
		I've said things I've regretted
		The moment they left my mouth;
		I've thought things
		That can only make me look shamefully
		At my pitiful self-resolve;
		My smothered soul
		Finds it impossible
		To breathe in any salvation -
		To turn to God in this time -
		This is earthly,
		Foolish,
		Selfish,
		And often sinful stuff,
		Why would I want God in on it?

		"Because I love you, my child -
		No matter what your day's been like
		And no matter how you've acted,
		What you've thought,
		And how you've dealt with things -
		I'm here for you.
		Don't ignore me or forsake me today
		Because things have not gone smoothly -
		Remember that from today
		You've learnt something
		And it was something I wished you to learn -
		You may yet be unaware as to what it was,
		So look to me,
		And ask me what it was instead of wallowing.
		This day has happened.
		And instead of looking to yourself
		In shame, sorrow and pity,
		Please - look to me for your help."

		The ladder from my hole comes from 
		He who's too often forgotten in the moment,
		Never forgettable in eternity -
		So why do I so often forget Him in the moment?
		Lord, help me remember you
		And look to you
		In every moment
		And every situation
		Of every day.