Wholly return

		"I am yours Jesus -
		Forever yours,
		And as soon as I get back home
		I'm gonna do everything right for you, Lord..."

		Sincere words 
		From a hope filled and committed servant,
		But these dreams are often
		So easily broken and forgotten.

		The long awaited return home -
		Back to unpack and catch up on sleep,
		But family is waiting,
		Friends are waiting -
		Usually just querying your experiences
		But your heart is not in the reply
		As the effects of sleep deprivation
		Always seems to come crashing in
		Upon returning;
		Any even slightly difficult occurrence
		Is heavily depressing -
		All you want 
		Is for everyone to leave you
		While you sleep
		And think of what you've learnt.

		Having to work through strained relations...
		Why is it suddenly so hard?
		The world has hit you in the face
		And awoken you in a harsh fashion -
		So odd after being surrounded by people of God
		And being care-free for the past time.

		As the events build
		Your oaths are buried;
		And hidden once again
		Is your desire to serve the Lord
		At all times
		And through all things;
		The struggle is not chivalrous,
		It is all the little things -
		Those that are just so much easier to ignore
		Which create integrity -
		And this includes simply how you answer someone;
		As hard as it is to be nice 
		To those people who're bugging you -
		The way you reply is a reflection to them 
		As to what this time has done for you -
		So, be blessed and blessing in your answers,
		And keep your words of committance
		And the Lord's forgiveness in mind.